Panic Attacks!

Back to work, after such a long break! Double whammy, coz Bums is visiting his mum back in JB and will only be back tomorrow :( I miss him :( 

I keep looking at my BabyBump app and keep getting a nervous breakdown. It's just a matter of days now, and I really can't help freaking out. Had baby nightmares again last nite :( I know I've gotta stay positive and be prepared for it all, but sometimes I can't help being so paranoid of what could go wrong, especially after having witnessed so many births. Haihs.. Should have been a farmer instead!

Anyways, LilBums has descended lower now, almost completely engaged. I think there's hardly room for his random acrobatics in there now so I only feel him tickling or punching me at my suprapubic area (this becomes really challenging especially when I need to pee!!!) or feel his bum bum pushing upwards towards my rib cage, or feel his tiny feet kicking lightly at the sides. His movements are less vigorous, due to his expanding size and limited space but I still get a ganas kick once in a while!

Today I tried eating smaller amounts, but frequently. As its harder for me to walk arnd with a filled stomach now that I'm so much more gravid than before. The bloated sensation and refluxes are now super exaggerated, and I have to sit upright in order to feel comfortable from the pressure exerted by the uterus. Overcoming it gradually, and trying to be comfortable.

Mum has been cooking wax pumpkin lately, as we've been told it helps with the leg swelling. And surprisingly it really does reduce my swelling! I expected the wax pumpkin to taste like regular pumpkins which I like, but it doesn't.. I don't really like it. But have to telan nevertheless!

Ok, I'm gonna google relaxation techniques and calm my nerves. And not think about birthing and everything associated to it.

Have a good week ya'l!